Procedures, Nursing skills… Everything… I realized I’ve developed this fear of getting accessed~* I dare say I’m clear of what I’m doing whenever I had things to be done… I dare say I’m confident of doing things the right way, benefiting the patients to the maximum~* but somewhat~* things always go wrong whenever getting accessed...
And… WOOTS!!! I got accessed today~* I wouldn’t say I’ve screwed them up this time though, like I usually did so in other hospitals… =P for the CI actually ended with a “Alright,-well-done” kind of smile~* I’ve got the impression that… “Ya, Nigel… Wasn’t that bad after all was it??”
And there goes… A NGT insertion skill to be done on a DIL (Dangerously Ill List fyi) patient… well… now if I really am reflecting whatever that happened… I think… I did screw the skills up after all… =.=!! crap~*
First trial à Right nostril and stuck at around the 5th centimeter length inserted…
Second trial à Left nostril, *wheee!!* inserted totally… PROCEED PROCEED!!! And just when I thought I kinda did well enough, there goes… no Aspiration… no “Woosh” in auscultation… and there… the whole tube got into the mouth~*
Third trial à Right nostril again~* same effort, same results… 5th centimeter length, stuck~* like as if there’s a block of brick at the back of his nose…
Forth trial à CRAPPPP!!!!
*Depressed* that’s enough I guess… and totally… tried for the 6th time… and none succeeded… though I wont say those trials on the right are really trials, for I couldn’t even start by inserting more than 5cm in~* =.=!! For the patient’s a DIL case, CI had finally decided to hold mercy on me and put a stop to these… *I’ve screwed enuff too…*
And there!! Right at that moment!! *Ta-Da!!!* Wang Wei comes in wanting for just ONE try… HA!! I tried s.e.v.e.n times… alright? SEVEN!!! And none was successful… NONE!!! What makes him think he cud do them all in one trial?
And guess what… He did it… =.=!!!! Crap~* I seriously felt my heart skipped a beat when he Aspirated those gastric acids out~* and for THREE WHOLE FRESH TIMES I tried on the right nostril, which stubbornly kept failing on the 5th centimeters, he succeeded inserting that whole vacuum cleaner into that right nostril… that right nostril that I failed 3 times…
But geex~* I’m really so impressed he did it… impressed, envy, or jealousy? =.=!! why cud he do it and not me? Am I really that incapable of doing things the right way? What’s the CI gonna say now? “7 times Nigel~* 7 times!!* abit dramatic though… that’s kinda like what my mum would say instead… =P “Pathetic little wormmm” @__@
And there goes… that question that I realized ALL CIs wud definitely ask after a skill is done… Reflections~* asking from the APIE method kinda way… “Which part do you think u’ve done well and which, that u needed improvements?” and den… all the way I feel more depressed… whatever that I done that is good… you tell me… mannnn~* what cud I say… =.=!! for I seriously don feel I’ve done well in any areas… crap~* Assessment… ahhh… right on!! Assessment!! At least I did it on the right patient eh?? But what the hell… of course I didn’t say that… cud’ve made me sound like one complete idiot…
But she agreed… she said I did well on the assessment part… =.=!! Surprisingly for me though… jus for I knew the diagnosis of the patient, and verified the correct patient… which I thought if I say that might make me sound like a complete idiot… Planning~* I’ve forgotten this… cannot find that… where is this, where is that… and took a total 10mins to get jus 1 set of feeding set laid on the trolley… not yet speaking about the rest of the materials all jumbled up on the trolley… it’s a complete mess… Zzz… I didn’t even know a feeding set existed… I kept irritating staff nurses there asking for individual items… like what the hell~* A student nurse causing more hassle than to help out~* whereby the skill cud be done almost the exact time I prepared the equipments… but she gave out on me about this… said its my first time… well, lucky it’s my first time… =.=!! wudn’t dare imagine what she’d say if it isn’t my first time… but it is alright? It is…
Implementation… worst topic we cud go to… ahhh!! What cud be worse… get that over with, and reflect, and improve, and called it a day… that’s what I thought…
BUT SHE SAID I DONE WELL ON THE IMPLEMENTATION PART!!!! LOLS!!!! WAKAKAKAKAKAKA!!!! 7 times failure, she said well done… =.=!! damn hurt… sensed sarcasm… and here comes the consolation… she said luck is all I lack… ahhh~* I felt so much better… woots!! So I DID do everything the right way eh? I so much wanted to ask this again… but I did hold back… its obvious I did them right now… but so desperately wanting more praises coming… ahh~* jus don ask… is what I though… XD if she’d take back her words, i’ll be depressed again… =.=!! luck… right on… maybe I should start praying more often than I usually do now.. eh? =X
Evaluation… what did she say… oh oh oh~* ya… that SPO2 machine does the whole job… saved me from all the evaluation part… patient’s tolerance…
Right on~*!! Didn’t screw up!! XD heheee… *Well done Nigel, welllll doneeee~* wakakakkaka… though I know self praise is international disgrace… but like I care~* lols~*
The rest of the day? Woots!! Totally enjoyed… acting like CI around the Year 1s~* =P “Come come, I’ll teach u this, I’ll teach u that…” hahas~* can’t help it… I jus loved been a teacher since young… the attention I cud get… even from one fellow mate~* I enjoyed it full heartedly… well, at the same time, I was in a good mood too.. hahas… Cold compress… the right method of taking Tympanic temp~* everywhere I go~* XD everywhere I teach~* awww… I so much am getting so proud of myself…
But jus that day though… I can’t really much believe how much a hassle I had been the other days…
WOOTS!! Typing enuff~* time flies… wouldn’t say I’m tired though, but I really gotta sleep… definitely’ll need the energy tml~*signing off~* Tata~*
P.S Too long a post for a blogspot journal~* agreed? Keep it short the next time… XD NIGHTX!!! =P
