4th Day!!

man~* no comments... no comments... and no comments again... hMmMm~* i shudn't be expecting any eh? =X oh man... geex... how much i wish comments wud start coming in though... hmmm...

oh well.. the 4th day... is jus... a normal day... A day in IMH isn't more a diff in any other place already... i feel... so normal~* patients, are friends... more like, i don see them as patients myself anymore...

something unusual happened though... -=ShE=-
hmmm... i keep telling myself... its jus her appearance i'm in love with...
its jus the appearance...

but -=ShE=- looks so sweet~* i cant help myself... its more like a reflex... my eyes, kept traveling involuntarily to meet hers... i sure hope she doesn't realize i'm stalking her though... sounds so pervertic...

but i did something lame today... quite purposefully though... its true that i gotta get some info from a case file... well, at the same time, i know that, definitely, she'll be in the place where the case files all wud be at... for they had to pass reports at that particular room... and that they needed those files too... i could, well.. finish them way early even b4 they arrive... me, morning shift... -=ShE=-, afternoon shift... but i purposefully left it to the end jus to get a peek at her again... sounds so... sick.. =.=!!

man~~* i'm so obsessed wif this *Can You Feel The Love Tonight* theme song~* not really ppl singing though.. its jus... its jus the song... mannn~* i'm sooo... melted...

i wonder... does true love, really exist? some marry for money, some marry for kids... yet none that i've known, marry for love... even for love they marry... are they true? will they last? are they true enuff to last forever?

i want one too... well... at least one that's true enuff to last my lifetime... Be a Nurse? Studying? Working? Getting high income?? Be sssoooo rich?? i want all of them... but definitely... my most desperate wants, are none other than getting a true love~* will i ever get one? i never know... thats, if i never try... and even if i try, will i ever succeed?

i so doubt myself that i will succeed... depressed, as always... only to stand aside, and envy those hand in hand...

i wanna be cuddled and hugged too... i wanna be cuddled and hugged everyday~* i wanna feel... loved...

HmMmm~*