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*PURPLE* You are mysterious, never selfish and get interested in things easily. Your day can be sad or happy depending on your mood. You are popular between friends but you can act stupid at times, and forget things easily. You go for a person that's trustworthy.Those born in 22nd March to 31st March will have these kinda characteristic...

i'm born in the 26th of March... all maybe quite reliable... though crazzxx wud have thought again there's no cross references... but me being popular between friends?? maybe ALL THAT but being popular between friends... that's totally impossible... jeez... dream on nigel, dream on~* hMmMm...

Masks....
Don't be fooled by me...
Don't be fooled by the masks i wear...
For i wear a mask, i wear a thousand masks...
Masks that i'm afraid to take off~*
And definitely, none of them is me~*

Pretending is an art that's 2nd nature of me...
But don't be fooled...

I give the impression that i'm secure,
that all's sunny and unruffled with me...
within as well as without...
that confidence is my name, and coolness, is my game...
that waters are calm, and i'm in command... and that i needed no one...
but don't believe it... please don't...

I idly chatter with you in the suave tones of surface talks...
I tell you everything that's really nothing...
nothing of what's really crying within me...

So when i'm going through my routine,
don't be fooled by what i'm saying...
Listen carefully and try to hear what i'm not saying~*
what i'd able to say...
What, for survial, i need to say but i cant~*

I disliked the hiding...
I disliked the isolations...
Honestly~
I disliked the superficial phony games i'm playing...

somewhat or rather, when i'm listening to dreadfully touchy songs... i seemed to always relate them to my isolations... and inevitably, i always thought that getting myself attached, would solve the whole issue... however, i know full heartedly its gonna cause more depression... for all attempts to be in a relationships had always result in dreadful attempts...

a couple... hand in hand... strolling along the beach... although silence had always been a company for both, they had and knew there's no need for conversations... they knew, they both knew, that being there for each other had being the world to them... to both of them... as if each is a source of oxygen for another, both are just as important for survival...

i desperately wish one day, i'd be one of that couple... i'm desperately, desperately wishing...

i want someone to hold me tight...

i want someone to know i existed...

i want someone... to love me for who i am...

and i know... i'm willing to sacrifice anything for that...

sigh~*~*~* all seemed sooo dramatic... but how else wud u like me to convince u that all said is meant......? that this is the only one thing that i've wanted?



obstacles that doesn't kills makes one stronger...

my foot~*